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Yes, let's do......it's been a year I'd rather forget, so even a better reason to start again! I've learned a lot about blogs & have found some wonderful people I can't live without. Especially the "Mom Blogs". Their posts & their give aways are just great. Of course I got started a day late...so I'm the dollar short too....oh heck, what else is new! Now if I could only figure out HOW to put some of my favorites on my sidebar. I just learned to copy & paste for God's sake, I guess I shouldn't expect too much! I do have a real favorite at the moment, 5 minutes for moms, is a really helpful & fun blog,with great give aways almost every day....well,close to it. I have copyed their Holiday giveaway sign & hope I can paste it in here.....
Now what do I do........it's there,I think......oh for Heavens sake, I'm a mess.......but without a doubt this is a good first post for my new year & for what's to come.........FUN......a little about pets, my ducks included........a little about Grandkids, mine included......LOL......and maybe even some cooking, I found some great old recipes at Mom's yesterday! OK,let's see how this looks!
I swear this will be the last sad & just awful post i leave here! I want my blog to be a happy place to come to! I REALLY do.............so why did I wait so long to post.....because on April 8th at 1:30 am, I lost my best Friend & constant companion that saved my life when I had my heart attack.........my Pug, Snubs. Yes, I didn't see it coming,or I didn't want to see it coming, there was so many signs I missed & just the fact that I had totally forgot about the stupid "curse" I thought of when I lost Baby Cat! I knew that when he left me for Heaven that each year from then on, I would lose one of my precious pets! NEVER did I think i would lose my Snubs, my life, I scheduled every day around what she wanted......I was on the computer when she took her morning nap, I ate lunch with her & got back on the computer when she took her afternoon nap. We ate dinner together,we went outside together, we went to bed together & I loved her more than I can tell anybody. This hurts so badly, still, I can't look at a Pug. I will never love another Pug like I loved her. WHY did God do this to me? I stopped asking, I can't bring her back, I have to let my anger go. Well, let me start at the beginning..............I was on Twitter one day & saw that they were having a "paw party" to raise money for an Anima Rescue. If you donated a dollar you could "pimp" your pets picture for St. Pats Day.....how cool! SO, I went into the site & donated $5.00,old habits die hard for old Bartenders, we just can't do a dollar! LOL I was lucky to have $5.00 in my account...........so as I did this, I added a comment that maybe it will bring the help I need for my Pug. This wonderful lady, Caroline Golon, who heads up the fund raiser, actually took the time to write to me & ask what my Pug needed! She was an angel sent from God! She helped me to call all the Vets in my area & ask if they'd just LOOK at my pug & Caroline had offered to do a fund raiser for my Snubs if I could find a Vet to agree! I called EVERYwhere, we must all remember we're in FL., the home of the worst of everything important.....NO Vet's office would help me! NONE! Finally Caroline asked for some numbers & SHE called for me. She found a Vet who would look at her & Caroline paid for the first visit! In the meantime my Snubs woke up & could not breath to eat & Phil & I took her to the ER Vet who had spoke to Caroline. Oh they were fine until they heard about my inability to pay! They handed me my very sedated Pug & told me to give it a few days & she'll be fine! She'll be FINE, those words rng in my head everyday! Oh they wanted to keep her to "observe her" but that was ONLY ONE Thousand dollars for the DAY! SO off I went thinking my Pug would "be fine". The next day she wasn't coming out of it very well & I called to inquire as to what to do. Once again I was told to give it time!! They were looking at my chart & knew I had no money! Then later that night, I had set Snubs up with help in breathing & layed down. Thank the Lord I told her how much I loved her..............I wasn't woke up by her cry & I picked her up to move herback onto her bed & she looked at me & took her last breath............I can't do this, I can't think about this......WHY did those people tell me she'd be fine?! WHY did she die!? WHY did God take her from me?! WHY, WHY, why? I had to close her little eyes! I breathed into her little mouth just trying anything..........anything to bring her back to me! What am I going to do without her!? I wrote to Caroline at 2:30 after calling Bobby & Mom & Dad.I was so upset, I didn't realize the time. My dear,dear friend, Nancy sent me a book about Saying Good bye with Dignity.........it was the best thing I could read.....over & over.......I was mad at everyone......everyone...until I realized I was most angry with ME! IF I had money this would NOT have happened! IF I was a responsible pet owner......I hate that word.........Mother to Her...........my wonderful Phil, took her to the Vet at 2:30 & I kissed my Pug good bye for the last time. He also paid for her to be privately cremated at Peggy Adams Humane Society...........they saved her life when she was 2 & they ended up with her at the end. She was returned to me in a beautiful box........a BOX, MY PUG is in a BOX.............it hasn't been any comfort to me.....yet........I hope it is someday. I wanted to get a necklace & have a little of her ashes in it,but I just can't open the sealed box.......I just can't...............OK, that's all I have to say about that.......oh great, now I sound like Forrest Gump! It's me & Sam Bone,the Ham Bone Cat now.........never did I think it would me her & me. My little peanut cat that came from Randy Walkers Nursery! The pickiest eater in the world! I spent more feeding her & My Ducks then I did when I had all four of my precious pets! Oh my Ducks.............now that will be a happy post to start a new.......and I will start a new! I see all these blogs with reviews & give aways & recipes......I can do that, yes I can.............well I have recipes & I surely have a great garden & my Ducks, oh my Ducks.............yes, tomorrow will be the Meema says so happy blog...........
I've found that I've been avoiding posting & I finally figured out why............to start at the beginning of my life,the only good part is my childhood & giving birth to my three wonderful sons! I'm just NOT going there. The hell with the whole "life story" idea......sorry Momma, I'm going to have a FUN blog.........if it kills me! I've been stalking the blogs for awhile now & frankly, It's depressing.All these girls & woman are perfect writers & have all kinds of hobbies & cook AND bake & well, that's enough.......their lives are perfect, they have perfect kids..........what's up with that!? I think they're liars! I don't want to nor will I point any fingers, but it's just all too perfect.....of course I've read some very heart warming story's of illness overcome & challenged children & for them, I cried......but they were the exception,for sure! I'm an uneducated, over weight, disabled, retired Bartender that has never been out of this country! WHAT will I "blog" about?! OK, I WILL blog AND I will have a "happy blog"........twice...noooo.every other day! OK NOT today......just kidding...I am happy today! I found a give-away that I swear I hope I win! It was on Green Fairy Quilts. Now I have never quilted or even know any of the "quilting lingo" but everything she had was sooo gorgeous that it made me want to quilt....TODAY! It's just so overwhelming with all the "friends" lists on every blog & then you go to the next one & the next one & it takes about three clicks before you're so full of sugar that you just HAVE to STOP! Well, that's it......I'm having a happy blog.....WHAT AM I going to blog about? Can I brag about the fact that can beat every customer sitting at my bar at "Wheel of Fortune?" Or that I can receit (is that the word?) every "Matlock" & "Hawaii 5-0" that EVER was? I don't know? But I did name my blog "Because Meema says so" SO I guess that's what 'll blog about.......ALL the wonderful things I learned tending bar for close to 30 yrs. I bet NO one has a blog about that! I met some of the best...and worst people alive......but they ALL had a story. I loved so many of them & so many of them are gone. I lost count of the funerals I have attended years ago. BUT at least I now KNOW what my blog will be...........oh I'm very sure that my life will be in there too. The good, the bad & the really ugly of it all! There's a lot of laughs along the way.....a lot...........soooo tomorrows another day......Meema....HA! Though I was going to say it right??? BUT tomorrow IS going to start..............Because Meema says sooooooo
Before I continue to getting closer to the beginning of my story........I did figure out a little something... a little something is about all I can figure out these days......OK,somehow, I got two blogs......I know I did it when signing on to something before I knew what I as doing ( I DO now!?) but I choose to look at it as I was "supposed to have two"....another note about myself to remember for later......so this one will be or my precious Sons,who have been my life for my whole life, literally, in hopes that after reading this,they will somehow understand why I did most everything I did in my life or while I was growing up,because I DID grow up as they did, I had them all by the time I was 21! I was alone,most of the time AND I was learning WITH them in so many ways........OK back to the future.........My Momma is coming home AGAIN.......much better I'm so happy to say! As I suspected, she was dehydrated. The EMT's reenforced this & so did the hospital. Although now that they've been told that the rehab center had made her thisway, the don't want to talk about it at ALL anymore! She had IV fluids for two days & she has really perked up. She can get from her bed to her chair by herself & that's sooo much better than when she first came home. I called the rehab center to tell thm that I wanted her records to see who was monitoring her fluid intake & to see if her incontinent brief was being changed every two hours like it was supposed to be since she had a horrific rash! I think I put the fear of God in them because all they wanted to keep saying was that her release was "pushed for". I did ask before I told them that there wasn't another option since their "wonderful facility" didn't offer taking Medicare or Medicaid er funds,which is what my parents had to offer them.BUT as I said, what did that have to do with the fact tha my Mom was fainting from dehydration in less then two hours after leaving! Yes, NOTHING,she said nothing! I hope that no one thinks I'm awful for prosuing this because, we've never in none of our lives sued anyone for anything even with all the bad treatment we've recieved over the years. This time my Mother almost dyed from not being cared for correctly & that is where I draw the line! Not even the fact that the billing dept. came into my mother's room & told her she couldn't leave without paying the $200.00 co-pay she owed them for being there! NOPE,I'll let that go for now! I told her to tell them she wanted to speak to Human Relations if she came in again! THEN she was to call me! I have a HORRIBLE hate for the phone,but when it comes to my parents, i can put it aside......I wish I was better at helping myself with it, but I'm not. I wonder if it has aything to do with th fact that for 30 years of my life,the phone meant that someone was looking for their husband who "wasn't there" or asking some stupid question while drinking.......I just don't know....Anyway, my ankles are so swollen I can hardly walk & my head is so clogged I can't breath without the aid of Vicks, yes, vicks, so I'm not going to Mom's today. I'm hoping this will be gone by tomorrow so I can go spend the day & do everything I wanted to do the last time she was home! I'm going going there.....I'm finally moving on................to My Story for My sons to finally know who their Mom is............
I actually wonder if I'll EVER get to the beginning........I think I need the practice while I lead up to it. I'm afraid I still don't know what I'm doing....but yet I'm still jumping in with both feet! Remember this fact about me when I do get to the beginning,it may explain a lot. I'm self teaching myself by reading as much about blogs & as many blogs as i can. This is how I educated myself from the time I was 15. It helped SOME, but the best thing it did was continue my love of reading that started at a young age with my "Mr. Poppers Penguins". I worried at first that I wouldn't get all the punctuation & spelling right, but hell nobody does. Even the "smart" people's blogs are loaded with mistakes on all of the above & nobody seems to care! It makes me wonder if he children of today will ever know how to put a sentence together, without help or spell anything but all the "shortcuts" that come with doing this thing called a blog! WHY do I even think about these things? I inherited it from my precious Momma......WHY did I have to get that from her when she has so many other wonderful qualities? That does bring me at least to today....not the beginning but today....my Momma, I'm lucky enough at my age (ha ha NOT talking out loud about it) to have both of my parents alive and close by. Momma is 84 & has suffered with R.A. for a lot of years. Along with the rest of her non-selfish,long worrying, totally devoted to her children life, she's dealt quietly with all the pain of that horrific disease. Two weeks ago, I got the call I so hate to get,that she had fallen in the bathroom & was knocked out cold. She actually fainted & fell. She's undoubtedly from the "old school" of NO one comes in the bathroom when she's in there.NO one,not her husband not anyone. I'm sure a lot of people know or have someone they love from "that" era. So it was a matter of when Dad had decided it was time to check on her that she was actually found on the floor. The next set of events isn't worth getting in to,or I just don't want to,the final outcome is that she cracked her already painful kneecap,but came thru it strongly like she aways does. She was taken to Wellington Hospital,because I was there & felt the care was better than most in our area. We must remember that FL. is a"country" of it's own ,not like any state in the rest of our country! We treat our elderly like CRAP here & the Dr's. are all the Dr's from all the other states that either lost their job, can't practice in any other state or just want to play golf everyday all year! Shall I tell you how I REALLY feel about them? With that being said, I felt I was treated as well as we here in Fl can expect in a hospital. OK, NOT the case with my Mom! The first day she was there, now mind you it was a Saturday & we just can't expect the staff to act like it's a weekday, Mom was taken for a test & when she returned to her room,she was just "plopped" in there. My Son entered to find her lying there,with NO buzzer for the nurse at her reach, her water jug empty,not just empty DRY & NOT at her reach & her lunch tray across the room stone cold! He went to the nurses station to "alert" them to this fact,after my Son her got her to drink some water from the bathroom sink, only to have them say that they were busy & of course "sorry". When a nurse came in the room, they looked at my son & said that he "taken care of it so why did they need them?"I assure you that this is nothing out of the norm & what we've come to expect here. SO when I arrived, I went directly to the nurses station with my mother's med list in hand, she'd been there since Friday evening without them even knowing what meds she took every day! I calmly went over the meds & told them that she's incontinent due to the fact her bladder had fallen (even after two surgery's to repair it) & would need to have incontinence briefs on every day. OK, sit down for what I was told next & please remember this floor was 90 % elderly people, "they do NOT have them on this floor"!!! I again,calmly asked if the Dr. could please order them for her. AGAIN I was told they do not have them! OK, so Dad will bring them in for her, OK?? Her reply, "can she change them herself" Um,NOOO, she has a cracked knee & can NOT even sit up yet! NOW I was losing it. I turned around to see the board to remember the nurses name I was speaking to & to regain my composure...... at which time I saw that each nurse was assigned to eight rooms of patients! This IS the height of our "season" & the hospitals are at capacity & then some (I've been in the hallway of a floor when had had surgery twice) & when I turned around I said to her, "I really do realize that you are busy, I would not ask you to give her any "special" care, just please make sure she has water & food!" I then told her that I also realized that she's "just" another 84 yr. old woman that you have to "tolerate" but she's MY MOTHER,who was the best mother a girl could have & I just want to be sure she's cared for while she's indeed in your care! I composed myself again & went on to request that they have the primary care Dr. to call her "bladder" Dr. to come in & take a look to see if the infection she's had for two months has anything to do with her fainting. The nurse then told me that she indeed knew Mom's Dr.& would do that for me. I walked away still thinking about this hospital not having incontinence briefs!! BUT it WAS a Saturday & maybe the "A Team" wasn't on duty! When is WAS Monday & Mom still had not even had her knee diagnosed yet,let alone SET! I talked to the "Monday nurse" who told that they did have "pads for patients who got their periods" I told her that the patients on her floor hadn't had their period in 50 yrs.!! Her look was that of disgust,so I changed it to thirty yrs. which didn't help her look at all. BUT Mom did get an "immobilizing" cast put on that day. I again asked for her "bladder Dr. " to be brought in & was told that she would be consoled as soon as possible. I also asked why she didn't have IV fluids & was told the Dr. didn't order them. OK, my mother fainted,she appeared to be dehydrated when she was in the ER, but NO IV fluids & NO record of how much fluids she was getting? NOPE! The next day Dad was told she would be going to a "rehab"for therapy on Wednesday.I asked if Dr. Bladder had been in & my answer was "not yet". OK, I'll be patient,after all they ARE "SO BUSY". Wednesday came & Mom was moved with no Bladder Dr. ever coming in. NOW I'm going to have to take a break before I continue to so I can check up on today's events. I think I've given us all enough to absorb for now.....right? It's enough for me to get riled up again that's for sure!
I just found out WHAT a blog is about a month ago. I'm finding out that although I lived the first half of my life (I decided to stick with the "half" thing) very fast,this part is where I 'm really lagging behind. I'm jumping in with both feet & just going to stick to what I originally wanted it to be.......a "page" where my Grandchildren can see how much I love them & have the memories of all the wonderful things we did together in one place to relive whenever they want to.........BUT along the way, I have some things to say to my own children too.....so pay attention...........because Meema says so......
